LifE iS nOt a beD of rOseS!!

joy

Life is so positive for me today!!

Here I am facing my laptop with the CUTEST piglet and Baloo looking back at me!! Gosh, they are just sssooo adorable!! And how did they manage to end up in a pile of 99cents??!!

It is such a joy to be able to share. Trust me, it does! It was such a delight to see Marco finishing..hmm.. a quarter of the cake? And Xinyi to shout out loud when she saw the cake on the table? And yeah, getting a huggies from her too!! Haha... I mean.....they enjoyed it and I am happy!

Huggies huggies huggies!!

They kinda make me feel rather close and friendly, in some ways. It was rather cute to have 3 little girls coming up to me and giving me a hug because I work in Six Flags? Oh yeah, then asking me for free tickets to enter? (haha.. okay.... sucking up?) Oh well, it doesn't matter really, it is kinda cute of them anyway! Like long time friends or whatsoever.

Living here in the United States for almost a month, I kinda feel like....it is a nice place to live in. People are rather friendly here, just an eye contact and some friendly question will just pop out, just be ready to answer them! Okay, maybe San Antonio is a small town, not very developed and I would proudly say, I lived in a much more developed country where transportation system is way better! The people here are rather simple, not.....really that materialistic? Idealistic? Perfectionistic? Whatever else! However, undeniably, the values here are rather different! Oh yeah! We read about it, the society puts the blame on it, and now I am experiencing it! Pretty cool eh? But, it is rather shocking, to hear...(what?) people here are going back to the traditional days when early marriage was the in-thing? Gosh, what say you, people in Sg and My? Are we back-ward or what? A girl..ehem.. lady who is 18-years-old is married? Ah? What am I doing?! Oh no, she doesn't have a kid and she wasn't pregnant then. List goes on. And it is common! Or perhaps just where I am working at. And the most crazy Tilla show! I dare say she is the little devil! Like how could she not be? It's bizarre! *shrugs*

Oh well, I am not here to change the world! Neither am I to say this is wrong and that is right. Culture is about embracing it, and still holding on to my own values. Oh yeah, I am living the dream I dreamt when I was a teenager (huh? I'm not a teenager anymore? I miss it!) reading the stupid teenage summer love story! Okay, not exactly the love story part, but the summer job kinda thing, you know what I mean? It's really fantastic! Looking at the two adorable toys right in front me evokes the feeling that I'll be child-like once again when I step into Disneyland! I can't wait! Can't imagine and don't wanna imagine me acting like a little girl? Please don't! Coz nothing can stop me! Muahaha...

I am indeed enjoying myself here!! Oh yeah, troubles here and there. But then again, it's my positive, up day! I'm laughing my way through them, today.

the big 'C'

So it is said, C is for car, condo, career, cash, credit card, and....what else??!! COMMITMENT!!!

The one word that I am scared of,
the one word that I have always been avoiding,
the one word that I thought will bring me destruction to my purpose in life.

But I am wrong. So wrong.

An incident that lead me to a discussion with my friend,
and recalling the many incidents that happened in semester 2.
What an irony,
I thought I can concentrate better in my studies when I avoid all other 'least important' things,
in the end, sigh sigh...
I have unknowingly instill that bug in me, that it became a part of me!
Couldn't control it, went out of hand,
everything I did, became commitment-less,
or so they say.

What good did I get in the end?
Nothing!

It's time to renew my commitment to God,
and I suppose,
everything else will come together naturally
when the time comes.

sTonEd

I can't stop looking at the wind outside...
Oh wait, wind can't be seen, it can only be felt.
But, I am not feeling the wind, sad...

I see the leaves on the trees, flapping their leaves,
I don't wanna sit here and study,
I wanna get out
and feel the wind!!

But it's so sunny,
and I feel lazy,
I just wanna feel the wind!!

Thus, here I am,
at Uncle Toby's house,
stoning.

Xiaowen is sleeping,
she is sick;
Uncle Toby's dad is back,
he passed her some medication,
and he smells a burning muffin.

I can't wait for the exam to end,
then what happens next?
I'll miss my friends.

Oh well,
back to study!
No time!
Quit stoning!

zzzzz tWo bRains!

check this out peeps!! Hilarious but certainly not crap.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxtUH_bHBxs

Yeah, I guess that's how the brain works. Make some sense in whatever trouble you are facing with the oppostie gender? Can't do much but accept the fact, I think.

cONfeSsiOn

Yes, I have a confession to make, I am a blessed and pampered girl. I never plan for my own birthdays, I just assumed that some friends out there will do that for me, if no, it's okay, but the latter never happened for the past few years, THANK YOU DEAR FRIENDS OUT THERE, for always making my birthdays a special day!!

Thank you all Studio 5(including Chee Kien) and seniors,
for the many greetings,
for the 'surprise plans',
for my favorite cheese cake,
for the orange juice from Singgahsana,
for the birthday songs,
for the cheezy wedges,
for the cute mousy balloons,
for the birthday postcard which might worth millions after 10 years.

No, I didn't expect any of this, it is not expectations, really. I am glad to celebrate this special day in Kuching, which makes it more special, and for my friends to make it great.

Oh yea, and thank you Chaw Lee,
for the meal at Kenny Roger's,
for the dunno-how-to-describe experience at the mall.

And yea, thank my family and you friends
who called from Seremban, Alabama, and Sydney,
who sent text greetings,
who MSN-ed,
who sent emails, comments and wall-greetings,
thanks for remembering!!

And thank God,
for all the blessings that I have received and have yet to receive!

Ah....there goes my thank-you speech.

last few minutes

As I sit here, blogging, waiting for the last few minutes to past before the clock strikes 12, in this most comfortable, wonderful environment in Singgahsana lodge Kuching, with some fishy business going around.

Yes,

I shall wanna thank.....God, my family, my friends, my teachers, my.......okay... I suppose it was the Oscar season.

Okay, there goes my last few mintues of 21st year.

un-eXpecTatiOns

A thought just came to my mind,

Is life better off without expectations??

Will it be more fun? More excitements? More surprises? More happiness?

Or perhaps more sudden sadness?

On the positive tone, no expectations might be good, I just feel carefree, come what may, I'm happy. In fact, happier because it is unexpected! My friend was really touched because I gave him a real-belated birthday cake, I mean, it was his 21st and all I gave was a slice of cake, belated some more, but I suppose because it was unexpected of me to do so (oh, am I that....mean? (thinking hard, reflecting, maybe I am)), he was surprised! And I am glad. Haha.

No expectations, I am thankful for anything that happens, so much easier to do so. No expectations about friends, no expectations about work. Less misery. Perhaps because it is two-ways, to expect something, is for me to do what I expect others to do for me too. I mean, that's not how things are supposed to be, just like you are to expect no reward when you offer help. To expect good result, work hard!

But then again, you being good to others, doesn't mean you'll get the same treatment back, maybe better, maybe worse. You being studious, timely submissions, doesn't equally mean good result.

Thus, living a life of unexpectedness, will be better.

I think there is much more to research on this interesting topic. Perhaps I should just study sociology.

pre-VDay

Reflection of myself, after reading an article.

Single-hood.

It's a walk in a garden.
I relish the freedom of not being tied down by another person,
and having time and space to pursue my passions,
like picking up a new language, learning how to ballroom-dance, or going for sky-diving lessons.
I see it as an opportunity to explore who I really am, and who I can be.

On the flip side of the coin,
I feel like I got the short end of the stick.
Sometimes, I find myself envying others,
and feeling incomplete in a group of lovey-dovey, starry-eyed couples.
Things get even worse when I see my class nerd going out with a hot hunk.
What's wrong with me?

Oh well,

I should,
Believe that I have a destiny greater than marriage!

Happy Valentine's Day!

iMaginatiOns and feELings

As I have been listening to Joe Hisaishi's pieces and working towards final submission this Friday,

Just felt like saying...

Imagine the story when I listen to all those beautiful pieces,
to dance,
to dream,
the story Joe is trying to tell me, the listener.

Imagine the space I am creating,
the feeling,
the sensation.
To tell a story,
behind the materials,
the envelope of a space.

What can I do?

DP sets

oh my 天!! Dance production is finally over!!! Guess what? I've never felt more proud of Eusoff hall ever before! It was really a blast yesterday! The final showdown and I am (we are) damn proud of it! It was in UCC hall, big stage, spacious seating, great lighting (with some hiccups), and yea.... PRETTY SETS! Oh well, in comparison of what I experienced today, seriously elevates my feelings.

Okay, perhaps, the performances can be skeptical, it is not perfect, yea, i know. But, our high spirits, is undoubtedly, so there lah. Perhaps, that's why, I was a bit hyper for the past few days, haha... What's wrong? Let's have some fun! Which yea, we did, I did! All the laughters, jokes, oh my 天! I've never laughed so much after so long! Intermission, setters' time to take over the stage!! Behind curtain of course. So much fun and laughters! Nice memories, for sure!

Sets life, sad life. We are the people behind the scene anyway, face the truth, we don't get much of the limelight, well, perhaps spotlights on the sets that is, DP setters? We must be as invisible as we can get, must must not be seen. Be the first to go to UCC, be there almost all the time, be the last to leave, wah...sound quite sad. Does it matter anyway? Hmm... As long as I do get some encouragement and appreciation, I am so alright! Which, yea, I did, we did!

It was never my intention to be in this team. Nope, it wasn't my dream such as those of Wayne's and Han Cheng's. But, since I am in it, yea, have to do my best what... And yea, such a great team, we are! Damn proud!

Just wanna thank these people for being part of this memory that I'll never forget (with the help of pictures): Wayne wayne, Annabella (all those suggestions, which can only be accompanied by harmonious laughters), Han Cheng (gosh, that song....that face..... SUPER FUNNY!!), Chia Ling, Wen Lin (not funny wor...), Esther, Edmundo da vinci (classic wan tan mee), Raymond (pack up!!), Kai Han (pillar hugging), Joshua, Madeline, Huey Fen (照顾胎儿哦!), Kai Hui, Vanessa and dear Matthew who couldn't join us for the finale (maggie soup sizzling in the throat!).

signing off~
y vonne